Blogging hasn't been a high priority for me of late. It lost its luster for a time and I just haven't found it again. Sooooo my poor baby sits unattended and lonely. It isn't as if I don't want to or that there aren't things to talk about. I do and there are. I just cannot seem to connect the 2 anymore.
Life has a funny habit of getting in its own way and sometimes when that happens things take on a new hue. I have spent some time recently examining a few things from a new vantage point. Relationships being one of those things. Assigning priority to them in my life and how they have been over the past few years.
There are so many people that I love and care for, yet I am finding I have less and less of those feelings for a number of them and they don't seem to have those feelings for me anymore. I used to think life was just getting in the way. Now, I very much doubt that at all. The old saying "Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder" is a quandary to me -- as it has not seemed to apply since we moved to bible belt hell. If it were true, people who used care would remember me at important times throughout the year, instead I remember them and that goes unacknowledged. I can honestly say quite a few of these people haven't managed anything in several years now. If someone matters to you, you make at least the smallest of efforts... regardless of life's obstacles, or maybe I am just an anomaly...
During my retrospection, I decided I have enough on my plate. Wondering why I have become non-existent to people in the age of digital connection is not a priority. However, continuing to keep them in the circle of my life is also no longer a priority. It is a heavy option to choose for someone who loves pretty deeply, but with all the other dramatics in my life and in the lives of my immediate family, these people just cannot hold such a large chunk of my heart anymore.
Am I like those who have forgotten or just let go without any reason? Possibly. Does it make me a bad person? No -- because I can honestly say that at least I tried to keep those important people connected and that is more than they can say.
Maybe in time I will find a way to merge the blog back into my routine. I know I miss it!
Monday, April 15, 2013
It started out as Monday -- UGH
Tax Day -- a pisser if you owe
Boston Marathon Day -- an American tradition
Patriot's Day -- a long standing holiday in MA
Now it is an day for the history books.
A day of horror and anguish for no reason.
There are no words to truly describe how yet another day like this makes us feel.
I am grateful Hubster's family are all accounted for in New England.
I truly hope they catch the responsible party.
I choose to give most of my thoughts
to the responders today who used their training
for the greater good in a no good scenario
and those who just helped because they could.
at 10:47 PM
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
March 26, 1993
It was the first day of the rest of my life!
It was the day that began the
story of Hubster and me.
It is hard to believe we have
traveled 20 years together!
We have come a long way since that day.
I wouldn't trade any of it!
Cheers to the next 20!
Much love, as always, to you Hubster!
XX Me XX
at 10:57 PM